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Thinking Out Loud
Desensitized or something else?
Every day, someone somewhere navigates the valley of hardship, heartache, and loss. The complexity of these emotions makes it challenging to recover swiftly from life’s blows. Even as I grapple with my own setbacks, I can’t help but observe and feel the pain that permeates the world. It’s disheartening how unified action towards universal wellbeing and basic necessities seems hindered by a world dictated by tyranny and greed.
A few years ago, I was told I was an empath, someone who keenly senses the world's weight, leading me on an emotional rollercoaster. This path brings encounters with those embodying starkly contrasting emotional calibers, posing a continuous test to sharpen my emotional awareness and refine selective human engagements.
Recently, a shift occurred within me. Interacting with others facing hardships left me feeling indifferent. I question whether this is due to society's perpetual turmoil desensitizing me or if my heightened self-awareness allows me to disconnect from shared emotional energies. Perhaps, it's a bit of both. I find myself wondering if I'm becoming hardened to the trials of humanity.
Although I still desire to assist others in my unique way, I'm unsure if an all-encompassing approach suits me. My forte lies in emotional wellness, but perhaps a hands-on approach isn't the right fit. Maybe, my expertise in navigating feelings could be better shared in a different manner.
This newfound awareness leaves me uncertain about my role. I recognize that I no longer embody the empath I once was, and I’m unsure of how to navigate this transformation.
Until next time readers